[ izutsumi sniffs it for a moment before placing her fingers on the right buttons. she doesn't have her incredible reflexes, but she still reacts faster than a human. ]
[Sunny leans over to watch her play, not quite realizing that he has to scoot a bit. They're sitting a lot closer now. There's the smallest little smile on his face. She's doing pretty good for someone who's never played. He gives her a little thumbs up.]
[ hmm. izutsumi tilts her head up, her tail swishing as she considers her thoughts. she thinks about warped desires and playing pretend. like thistle had done. like others in the dungeon had.
but.
she doesn't know how to express that. so she tries to think of it like senshi would. ]
[Sunny shakes his head. It isn't a lie. His mind is just...too clouded with grief to realize she's probably right.]
I...used to.
Not anymore.
[His head feels dizzy. He doesn't talk about this sort of thing; kinda didn't have anyone to talk to. But something in him doesn't want him to tell the truth. Maybe he ought to go to sleep a while...]
[Sunny shrugs. It looks miserable. He doesn't want her to be there anymore.]
I don't...have any. [Not really. Not right now, in this moment, when he feels this way. Xie Lian could be a friend if only Sunny would let himself believe it. Luz too, Webby maybe. He just doesn't buy it...]
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[He finishes the level, holding the console out for her. He tilts his head a bit.]
It's just for fun.
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I guess I'll try . . .
You just press buttons?
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[ the appeal is still lost on her but pressing buttons is fun. ]
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Why?
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but.
she doesn't know how to express that. so she tries to think of it like senshi would. ]
Do you get hungry?
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So when you're not filling it with real things, the hunger never goes away.
cw: suicidal ideation
I'm...not hungry...like that.
[He doesn't want anything from life. He's given up on it.]
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Maybe you just haven't thought about it.
[ or he's pretending. izutsumi doesn't lie but she knows people can and will. ]
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I...used to.
Not anymore.
[His head feels dizzy. He doesn't talk about this sort of thing; kinda didn't have anyone to talk to. But something in him doesn't want him to tell the truth. Maybe he ought to go to sleep a while...]
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You should get something to eat. Something you like.
Something real. Eat it with friends.
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[Sunny shrugs. It looks miserable. He doesn't want her to be there anymore.]
I don't...have any. [Not really. Not right now, in this moment, when he feels this way. Xie Lian could be a friend if only Sunny would let himself believe it. Luz too, Webby maybe. He just doesn't buy it...]
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and pokes him. she's starting to get a better idea of what's going on. or something. ]
You do. You just don't know real stuff anymore. Right?
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Stop...
[His head swims.]
I don't...know what you mean.
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Yeah, you do? That's why you're so into the gaming stuff.
[ him and kenma. they want to fill their bellies with an insubstantial meal. ]
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It's just...for fun.
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But you need — [ what is it they always told her? ] — balance.
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1/2 cw: alter shifting
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