[ hmm. izutsumi tilts her head up, her tail swishing as she considers her thoughts. she thinks about warped desires and playing pretend. like thistle had done. like others in the dungeon had.
but.
she doesn't know how to express that. so she tries to think of it like senshi would. ]
[Sunny shakes his head. It isn't a lie. His mind is just...too clouded with grief to realize she's probably right.]
I...used to.
Not anymore.
[His head feels dizzy. He doesn't talk about this sort of thing; kinda didn't have anyone to talk to. But something in him doesn't want him to tell the truth. Maybe he ought to go to sleep a while...]
[Sunny shrugs. It looks miserable. He doesn't want her to be there anymore.]
I don't...have any. [Not really. Not right now, in this moment, when he feels this way. Xie Lian could be a friend if only Sunny would let himself believe it. Luz too, Webby maybe. He just doesn't buy it...]
[Sunny's chest is tight. He doesn't like this conversation. She doesn't even know him. It's a video game. "Balance?" What does that even mean? He's done fine. He leaves the house. He talks to people. It's a good place where good things happen. Why is she ruining it?]
[The boy takes a deep breath and stands up from where they're sitting. It isn't Sunny. Not anymore. The anger on his face has faded, but it isn't gone entirely. Omori points to the front door.]
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but.
she doesn't know how to express that. so she tries to think of it like senshi would. ]
Do you get hungry?
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So when you're not filling it with real things, the hunger never goes away.
cw: suicidal ideation
I'm...not hungry...like that.
[He doesn't want anything from life. He's given up on it.]
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Maybe you just haven't thought about it.
[ or he's pretending. izutsumi doesn't lie but she knows people can and will. ]
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I...used to.
Not anymore.
[His head feels dizzy. He doesn't talk about this sort of thing; kinda didn't have anyone to talk to. But something in him doesn't want him to tell the truth. Maybe he ought to go to sleep a while...]
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You should get something to eat. Something you like.
Something real. Eat it with friends.
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[Sunny shrugs. It looks miserable. He doesn't want her to be there anymore.]
I don't...have any. [Not really. Not right now, in this moment, when he feels this way. Xie Lian could be a friend if only Sunny would let himself believe it. Luz too, Webby maybe. He just doesn't buy it...]
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and pokes him. she's starting to get a better idea of what's going on. or something. ]
You do. You just don't know real stuff anymore. Right?
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Stop...
[His head swims.]
I don't...know what you mean.
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Yeah, you do? That's why you're so into the gaming stuff.
[ him and kenma. they want to fill their bellies with an insubstantial meal. ]
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It's just...for fun.
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But you need — [ what is it they always told her? ] — balance.
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I have it...
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Are you even alive?
1/2 cw: alter shifting
[Maybe he's not, okay? Maybe he doesn't fucking want to be.]
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Leave. Now.
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Fine. This got boring anyway.
[ with a flick of her tail, she heads out. ]