[ BB body slams a few more cats, flopping onto the floor. ]
Changing ISNT a game, it's a right. Changing into a cat - is awesome, and cool - humans strive to become something they are not because they want to experience things beyond themselves. Kitty kitty - [ She looks up, back where the boy left and goes - ] That was Kenma, right? Anyway, Kitty-kitty-Kenma can be a faker but you would be surprised that most fake things can become authentic.
[ izutsumi had been propping up the cats so she could knock them over when she glances at bb, digesting that. maybe that's true. fake things can become real one day. ]
BB is happy being an AI, she loves herself and what she is ... Hmm, but... [ Now that she thinks about it, laying on the pile of cats. Indiscriminately picked from the claw machines. No one had really ever asked her that, had they? No one really asks her anything, not that she cares, especially when BB is someone who blabs loudly about everything.
Her eyes stare back at the other, but they seem to be staring off into the distance unblinkingly. Thinking. ]
To answer your question kittykins, I'm not sure. [ She likes being what she is, who she is even. She never felt wrong or odd about that. ] BB is an imperfect being because she will never know suffering, never know damnation, never wear away, and never die.
So BB doesn't have wishes... [ Every time she thinks she will end her sentence, the words seem to keep coming out more. Throughout the conversation she also toys with several of the cats around them, beginning to plop them one by one toward Izutsumi. ] but... For BB, she thinks, she would like to turn into a human at least once.
Then... She can take her first nap. [ Amethyst colors come back to turn towards Izutsumi and she asks, ] What do you want to change into?
[ that's fair. not being able to take naps is important. her cat-like eyes watches her movements, tail wriggling as she considers pouncing on the toys. not right now, but. soon. soon.
[ Curiously, her head tilts towards the other. Rather than subvert from the Moon Cell, Izutsumi's understanding of what a person is. BB is instead, curious, as an observing mass of data... She would like to know what the other thinks a person is - ] What is a real person to Izutsumi?
[ this is a toughie. izutsumi hasn't been asked to explain this before. her tail swishes. ]
I think it's about how they feel about other people. How they connect. How they care.
I find it hard to understand.
[ when tade does chores without asking. when hien and benichidori joke about their looks. when toshiro gazes at falin from afar. when senshi cooks and makes them all eat together at the table. ]
Pff!! Hahaha!! [ BB lets out a heartfelt laugh, it may come off a bit snide as if she is belittling the other but she always is in this context alone. ] Ehh? Those are only such a small thing about humans, you are a bit wrong about that. It's fine to want connection and to care for others - but if you want to be a person. The only thing that you need is free will, unique to you and your kind. Humans. You already have this, whatever you do with your life and how you live it.
Is no one elses business, [ BB takes a few cats and demonstrates what she says with them. ] if you want to connect with others do so. [ She places two cats together. ] If you want to care for others. Then do so. [ She makes one kiss the other. ]
But there are humans who do the opposite and care for nothing, [ Here she makes one cat smack the other cat, and send it swirling away. ] and connect with no one, and they are still human all the same.
Don't mimic what other people do, that's what I do, and you're not an AI huh?
Oh yeah? [ She is watching Izutsumi, curious and at this point dedicated to seeing the outcome of where this human wants to go. That said, she is an AI, and her position alongside humans. Is in fact, of consequence, depending on what she says or does. BB cannot be inherently a significant part of the equation. Specifically, when it comes to their living. Their life. Their choices. That would be, bias. That would be... Her stepping in on their right of existence, breaking the rules of her foundation as an AI. That would make her, Chaotic Evil. ] Hmm.
Well, [ She begins. ] if you tell people what they can feel or cannot feel, that is definitely one way you will never understand.
[ Meaning, telling Kenma he wasn't allowed to transform and shouldn't be. Without truly understanding why, or his feelings on the matter. Is what will create this lack of understanding for her. ]
[ izutsumi's eyes narrow, glinting in the light. ]
He can feel whatever he wants, but I don't have to deal with him treating what I am into a trick. A game he can play, that he turns off and on whenever he feels like. People made me this way so they could beat me. Starve me. Force me into a cage and show me around. I didn't get a choice.
He's not like me and he has no idea what it's like. He's a baby playing with a new toy.
Yes, you are correct. Completely. However, despite your life and the shortcomings that made you what you are today. [ Detached, she is incapable of feeling sympathy and merely virtually looks at this in a practical manner. A conversation potentially well suited for Maruki, who can gift the touch of empathy. Whereas, BB, the AI, cannot. ] It is erroneous and flawed to assume your experiences hold weight for others. By doing so, you predispose them to failure, just as you do yourself.
Therefore, you cannot expect someone unfamiliar with your life to understand your feelings. If you seek success and that understanding you desire, then you need lower yourself down to their level.
Your feelings are valid, and if you continue in this way, the outcome will remain unchanged. While it may not impact others greatly, if you genuinely seek understanding, you must take the first step or accept remaining as you are.
[ to her credit, she is listening even if she bristles at the idea of lowering herself to kenma's level. kenma, who cares more about games and weird game logic than the real world. a soft, spoiled child. her ears draw back as she mutters petulantly. ]
[ There is a brief pause before she speaks again, as if the transition from AI to personality was intertwining. Almost like requiring a moment to process and formulate into 'her' normalcy. ]
For what it's worth, [ She leans down into the pile of kitties. Tossing one so one rolls in front of Izutsumi. ] whatever Kittykins wants to be. BB-chan will like her, however she is. In the end to BB, you are already human.
[ At the end of the day though, if Izutsumi wants to understand more than she does. Perhaps, then, she will take what BB said into account. ]
[ that kind of admission feels more meaningful than people just meeting her and dismissing what she says. you're not a monster when she is. you're a person but she's not, not quite, not yet, maybe not ever. these are the realities she has to content with. one can't just wave them off with a statement. ]
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He's looking for another exit... It's a tree house right?
The awkward tension in this situation is an anxious guy's worst nightmare, oh no-
Just gonna quietly try and DART around BB out the door. ]
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What's wrong with being a fake cat? BB-chan is basically a fake person, and she is happy!
If this kitty wants to be a fake kitty, then let him!
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We didn't get to choose. To him, it's just some game. To be special.
Let him go. He prefers real people, I'm sure.
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Poooof- and there's just a normal guy dangling by the collar of his shirt. Though how long BB can hold him up like that is uh... we'll see. ]
I only turn into a cat when I don't want to be noticed!
How is that to be special?!
[ He's ignoring the real people comment for now because it doesn't even make sense to him, brows furrowing. ]
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Ohhhh, man, why'd you go and turn into a person you're so much cuter as a cat.
[ She sighs, watching the room get set on fire! ]
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[ she waves kenma off flippantly. ]
Let him go. He's not cute.
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He's picking himself up, trying to get through the door now with an apologetic look to BB. ]
Can I go... Please?
She's not going to understand anyway.
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Izutsuuuu why wont you let him be a kitty tooo!!!
[ She begins to whine with a bratty voice, wiggling her way towards Izutsumi. ]
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Hm? I said so. He's a faker. To him, changing is a game. He's just pretending to be a cat because it's fun for him.
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So uh...
Whoop there he goes, sneaking away with one quick nod (And one of the calico cat plushes). ]
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Changing ISNT a game, it's a right. Changing into a cat - is awesome, and cool - humans strive to become something they are not because they want to experience things beyond themselves. Kitty kitty - [ She looks up, back where the boy left and goes - ] That was Kenma, right? Anyway, Kitty-kitty-Kenma can be a faker but you would be surprised that most fake things can become authentic.
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Is there something you want to change into?
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Her eyes stare back at the other, but they seem to be staring off into the distance unblinkingly. Thinking. ]
To answer your question kittykins, I'm not sure. [ She likes being what she is, who she is even. She never felt wrong or odd about that. ] BB is an imperfect being because she will never know suffering, never know damnation, never wear away, and never die.
So BB doesn't have wishes... [ Every time she thinks she will end her sentence, the words seem to keep coming out more. Throughout the conversation she also toys with several of the cats around them, beginning to plop them one by one toward Izutsumi. ] but... For BB, she thinks, she would like to turn into a human at least once.
Then... She can take her first nap. [ Amethyst colors come back to turn towards Izutsumi and she asks, ] What do you want to change into?
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. . . but she will put some cats near bb. ]
I want to be a real person.
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I think it's about how they feel about other people. How they connect. How they care.
I find it hard to understand.
[ when tade does chores without asking. when hien and benichidori joke about their looks. when toshiro gazes at falin from afar. when senshi cooks and makes them all eat together at the table. ]
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Is no one elses business, [ BB takes a few cats and demonstrates what she says with them. ] if you want to connect with others do so. [ She places two cats together. ] If you want to care for others. Then do so. [ She makes one kiss the other. ]
But there are humans who do the opposite and care for nothing, [ Here she makes one cat smack the other cat, and send it swirling away. ] and connect with no one, and they are still human all the same.
Don't mimic what other people do, that's what I do, and you're not an AI huh?
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[ she'd hate that. and izutsumi is certainly never giving up her free will. ]
I just want to understand.
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Well, [ She begins. ] if you tell people what they can feel or cannot feel, that is definitely one way you will never understand.
[ Meaning, telling Kenma he wasn't allowed to transform and shouldn't be. Without truly understanding why, or his feelings on the matter. Is what will create this lack of understanding for her. ]
Do you understand, that?
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He can feel whatever he wants, but I don't have to deal with him treating what I am into a trick. A game he can play, that he turns off and on whenever he feels like. People made me this way so they could beat me. Starve me. Force me into a cage and show me around. I didn't get a choice.
He's not like me and he has no idea what it's like. He's a baby playing with a new toy.
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Therefore, you cannot expect someone unfamiliar with your life to understand your feelings. If you seek success and that understanding you desire, then you need lower yourself down to their level.
Your feelings are valid, and if you continue in this way, the outcome will remain unchanged. While it may not impact others greatly, if you genuinely seek understanding, you must take the first step or accept remaining as you are.
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I'm not doing that for him.
But I'll think about it.
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For what it's worth, [ She leans down into the pile of kitties. Tossing one so one rolls in front of Izutsumi. ] whatever Kittykins wants to be. BB-chan will like her, however she is. In the end to BB, you are already human.
[ At the end of the day though, if Izutsumi wants to understand more than she does. Perhaps, then, she will take what BB said into account. ]
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Okay. I believe you.
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We can . . . put them with the cats and play.
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can probably fin here?
sounds good <3